The problem with being a practical person who is also intuitive is that you often think things through and know when the storm is going to hit.
Sometimes you know the tsunami is coming but you choose you walk into it.
I wish I could be happy with doing things normally, so I didn’t have to thrust myself into the uncertainty of everything that is going to come.
But what happens when your heart is way ahead of you and knows exactly what will make you happy. Knows already that you’ve hit a place from which you can’t go back.
When I am in the moment it’s fine.
When I think about what is to be, the risks I am taking I should panic… I worry that I am not worried enough about this.
Shouldn’t I be absolutely freaking out at the uncertainty I am going to face?
Why is it then that I am calm?
Because the alternative feels not-me.
Sometimes all you have is your instinct. That part of you that pings when you are going in the right direction. And goes quiet when you head away from the beacon.
Well that’s where I am. Ha, and you thought it was an issue not to be in touch with your inner voice. Try me – I’ll tell you the problem that comes with knowing yourself too well. For, I have faced my deepest fear – I hate what I become when I don’t do the stuff that is me.
I’ve run out of excuses.
I am going to do this.