It’s been an interesting few months for me. I got to play at being a full time writer while in between jobs. And somewhere along the way I became a full time writer. The days sped by, between writing 3 short stories, half a book and discovering some amazing new life changing authors who helped shape my voice, and the promoting and helping part time with a marketing agency, I didn’t have time to breathe.
I made a conscious decision a month ago to not worry about the future, or about money and simply just enjoy the opportunity I had been given of doing what I love best. And guess what? I found I actually loved doing what I thought I’d love doing. If that make sense.
Maybe somewhere I had been simply afraid of letting myself just be and immersing myself completely in the experience of creating.
What also became clear is that so much is to do with just being and believing what you know deep inside about yourself.
And that so much is to do with simply not planning but letting things happen. Like going to a party and standing in the centre and letting people come to you rather than seeking them out. It brings a level of serendipity back to your life. It also means you let the unseen do the talking. Something I’ve always believed in but never allowed myself to really let unfold.
It’s about not wanting to have control over life. But letting it surprise you. Like having kids and letting each day unravel like a new adventure.
And the more you are the thing you want to be, the more you become it, and things more in that ‘space’ come to you.
So what’s next for me? I have a three month interim role coming up. And I am looking forward to dipping my toes back in that world and seeing how this more aware self is going to react. Perhaps this is the way forward? Work three months – write three months? There really is no magic formula. You just have to try and let things unfold as they happen.